ashleyangel613's Blog
-
hey guys!
4/8/08just wanted to apologize to everyone who i've taken so long to get back to.. things have been pretty hectic for me lately so i needed to take some time to get my head straight and get the rest of myself together too. so far things are okay.. it's a slow progress but i'm doing my best to keep my head above water. thanks for all of the love and support you guys have given me; i hope you know that it works both ways and i truly appreciate each and every one of you.. criss included! =P♥ stay awesome guys- much love, ash.
-
♥
2/12/08
about me when it comes to criss; i’ll most likely be pigeon-holed as one of those crazy teenage girls who obsess over criss because “he’s SO HOT!” but i’m honestly one of the furthest things from that stereotype. i'm not gonna' lie, he's extremely attractive, but i'm not now and never will be one of the fans whining day-to-day over whether or not criss shaves.. that sh*t's rediculous. he could be 500 pounds, bald, with whatever else you wanna' think up and i'd love him just the same. you can hold me to that too. i love, support, & look up to criss for so many reasons.. it can’t be fully put into words. he’s opened my eyes to so much and got me addicted to pushing my own envelope. everyone always tells me that i've "had my head in the clouds" since i was little and that it'll never change- i agree with them, lol. my friends tell me i'm like alice in wonderland.. when something seems weird to them, i'm always the one that finds the beauty/potential in it that they can't see. i've never made boundaries for myself or anyone around me. & criss gives me the comfort of knowing that i'm not alone. he changed the way i view magic for sure.. i never would have realized how complex of an art-form it is if it weren't for him. he has my ass on the edge of my seat the entire time watching him feeling nervous, scared, surprised, excited, shocked, amazed, & confused all at the same time.. which automatically makes the experience real magic in my eyes. criss in my opinion is just beyond words. he taught me to never give in or settle for anything less than my highest expectations.. my dreams. he’s a huge reason i’m able to keep my head up during rough times because i remind myself of criss and all the people in this world who had it worse at one point or another. i’ve learned from him that complaining and feeling sorry for yourself is only a waste of time and energy. pain’s a part of life. & the world doesn’t slow down or stop to grieve for anyone. criss stayed strong and pushed himself every single day no matter what because he believed in himself and all that he had to offer. he taught me that absolutely anything is possible.. & helped me believe that there’s more to living than being alive. you have to go after every dream and fight for it with all you’ve got. & if you have the drive to do that despite any shit trying to get in your way.. you WILL be rewarded eventually. criss reminds me so much of myself. it’s crazy to think that when i’ve never met him personally, but that too is what makes him stand out so strongly in my eyes. reading books always drove me insane. but when i read his, i felt like i was talking to him face-to-face. that’s probably one of the only books i’ve ever been able to read without chucking it out the window after the first few pages.. & if you know me personally, that’s definitely saying a lot. all in all; criss moves, inspires, amazes, & continues to make me believe. he’s without a doubt my biggest influence and i know i’ll carry a part of him, what he represents, & all the things i’ve learned from him by my side for the rest of my life. i just hope that one day i'll be able to let him know personally.
